The Now

When I was first introduced to recovery many years ago, I had a friend who used to say the most bizarre things.  One thing he would frequently say is, “You’ve got one foot in the past, one foot in the future, and wondering why you’re living in the shit.”   At the time, I had no idea what he was talking about.  He said it so often, I cringed every time he started to say it.  Now my friend is deceased.  He died sober.  I wish I could tell him that after all these years, I think I understand what he was trying to tell me.  I find myself squandering the present moment by morbidly reflecting on the nightmare that was my past, or worrying about not getting the outcome I want in the future.  And I don’t even realize I’m doing it.  Being at peace with my past and accepting whatever happens in the future is the only way I can find happiness with my sobriety today.

2 thoughts on “The Now”

  1. Thank you for sharing this , it is truly how I feel … it has been difficult not to look back , but I was given a second chance at a Sober and Peaceful life …away from the “other “ person I had become when I was drinking… Life is a beautiful gift and I will treasure it as my Higher Power intended

  2. I just finished your book it was both painful and insightful As a person who has struggled with the addiction issues of both my wife and son and has been through hell that included many trips to rehabs and far to much heartbreak to mention Your book gave me insight into the life of an addict Amazing Book thank you for sharing your amazing journey

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